(Stolen) Question of the Day

My favorite poet/writer on Twitter posed this question today. I'll share my answer below. Share yours in the comments or your own blogs.

What is one thing you learned/cherished about yourself in 2009 and one thing you wish to leave behind forever? ~ @basseyworld

I learned that I can do anything I set my mind to and no matter how unconventional, risky, or scary, things will work out. I know this sounds trite - like something your parents or mentors tell you - but I really felt and lived it this year. Looking back over the year, I made less money than I have since graduating from undergrad and I did so much more than ever before. I took 4 trips this year which isn't unusual for me but two of those were actual vacations - not just booking a flight and crashing at a friends place. Plus, I traveled to France. I know people with full-time jobs who wouldn't ever think of doing any of those things. I'll write a separate post but I also did some other pretty cool things that I wanted to do despite the fact that this has been my craziest and least financially stable year yet. So I cherish my ability to step outside of my box or to expand it. I value the inner voice that helps me deal with disappointments and bad times knowing that it will all work out in the end.

On the other hand, while I trust myself, I don't trust other people. I would love to leave that behind. While trust shouldn't be given freely, I find that I don't even trust those "closest" to me. Those that I do trust seem to be so far away and the settings in which I feel comfortable sharing with them only happen once a year at most. Perhaps this is by my own design. I hope to leave this behind to build stronger, more fulfilling relationships with friends and family. I hope that I can do this and hope that others can prove themselves worthy of my trust. Being vulnerable is not comfortable and has never felt safe for me but it's time for me to do it anyway.